Scourged

The wanted feeling of being unwanted eventually morphs into envy
A cringing man on a cold bed comforted by a smooth yet heavy comforter

I stood in a well guarded sidewalk in Japan, assassins on the prowl, fear grows and mauls
Seeking refuge in a dining hall, a bowl of noodles opposite a Japanese girl

There is no greater pain than confusion
When social support dwindles and stupor sets in
A nervous shiver; shivering nerves
A fervent giver; lingering love
Defeatism and weakness can be the recipe to greatness

My incalculable calculus was calculated with a calculator
Exponentially increasing the human calculability of a calculus meant to be incalculable by human calculability
I hate palpability